Dear Father,
I'm struggling with so much right now. My faith has been trampled on and the enemy has been throwing darts at me like crazy. I feel the darts with fire burning my hope and dreams down. Kid I know you have called me to be something mighty and fierce, but in all honesty I'm not seeing that anymore. I see a broken woman who is running low on faith. I need you Lord to revive me. I'm weary with little strength right now. Please Lord reassure me that I'm not alone and that your will for my life isn't an imagination. Father, so many people look at me and think I'm a joke right now or they think I'm not trying, when Lord that's what I'm doing. This time is the hardest for me. This heart is dry Jesus. Please help me. Please hear my prayer.
Saturday, February 27, 2016
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Contentment
Dear Abba Father,
What can I say about my current situation. I would say that it's not what I would have thought it would be. I'm not where I want to be, and that has been hard for me to break away from. I will be honest with you about the pain and frustration even the anger I feel. I put a lot of time into thinking that what I want is my identity. It's frustrating to be in this place, and very hard to stay focused and content. There are times when I feel like breaking down or just ignoring you. I sometimes do ignore you. I get restless and depressed in this circumstance. My eyes and mind stay more focused on the trial than on you. I'm sorry Father that I get like that. Your humbling day by day. Teaching me that you have all control no matter if I like it or not. I prayed for you to take control I just didn't think it would look this way. I know that trusting you is all that I can do. I mean you took all other options away lol. Contentment is not an easy lesson to learn. It is difficult and sometimes tiring. Leaning on you is the only way to make it through. Your teaching me that. I will not lie and say I'm joyful or happy about this lesson. All I can do is admit my brokenness and despair, and trust that you will see me through.
Love your faithful daughter <3
What can I say about my current situation. I would say that it's not what I would have thought it would be. I'm not where I want to be, and that has been hard for me to break away from. I will be honest with you about the pain and frustration even the anger I feel. I put a lot of time into thinking that what I want is my identity. It's frustrating to be in this place, and very hard to stay focused and content. There are times when I feel like breaking down or just ignoring you. I sometimes do ignore you. I get restless and depressed in this circumstance. My eyes and mind stay more focused on the trial than on you. I'm sorry Father that I get like that. Your humbling day by day. Teaching me that you have all control no matter if I like it or not. I prayed for you to take control I just didn't think it would look this way. I know that trusting you is all that I can do. I mean you took all other options away lol. Contentment is not an easy lesson to learn. It is difficult and sometimes tiring. Leaning on you is the only way to make it through. Your teaching me that. I will not lie and say I'm joyful or happy about this lesson. All I can do is admit my brokenness and despair, and trust that you will see me through.
Love your faithful daughter <3
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