Dear Heavenly Father,
Words do kill. I know in the word of God it talks about words become flesh. I believe words do become flesh when we believe in them. I don't want to live my life believing words that people have spoken over me or even what the enemy tells me. I myself have even put my self down countless of times. I want to be in a place where the words that people speak no longer have a hold on me. I want to be free from destruction. God I will not lie to you, its hard for me to see you as a perfect God sometimes. I get you confused with the earthly relationships that I have. I know that you would never tare me down. It is hard to believe that sometimes. Maybe because I hear so many destructive things all the time, even in my head. I'm at a place where I want to learn to have a pure whole hearted relationship with you. I don't want to be afraid of your love. I know your not like the people who have torn me down. You make me whole and heal me. You would never want to hurt me. I know that you are my heavenly Father and you want the best for me. The place I'm in isn't easy and sometimes its not a place want to be. I know in this time I have rebelled many times. Please forgive me for that. Please also forgive me for putting myself down too. I know that is putting you down also. You've brought me through too much for me to doubt you. I want to make room for you to burn this fire in my heart and make it shine bright. I know the words you have spoken over me: conqueror, virtuous, strong, bold, daughter, righteous, friend, helper, servant, beautiful, and brave. For you said in your word, "But now, this is what the LORD says-- he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine."-Isaiah 43:1 I know before you formed me in my mother's womb you knew me by name and had my life already planned. I stand and proclaim that every word that you spoke over me becomes life in Jesus name!
Love,
Michelle Morton
Friday, March 11, 2016
Saturday, February 27, 2016
Follow You
Dear Father,
I'm struggling with so much right now. My faith has been trampled on and the enemy has been throwing darts at me like crazy. I feel the darts with fire burning my hope and dreams down. Kid I know you have called me to be something mighty and fierce, but in all honesty I'm not seeing that anymore. I see a broken woman who is running low on faith. I need you Lord to revive me. I'm weary with little strength right now. Please Lord reassure me that I'm not alone and that your will for my life isn't an imagination. Father, so many people look at me and think I'm a joke right now or they think I'm not trying, when Lord that's what I'm doing. This time is the hardest for me. This heart is dry Jesus. Please help me. Please hear my prayer.
I'm struggling with so much right now. My faith has been trampled on and the enemy has been throwing darts at me like crazy. I feel the darts with fire burning my hope and dreams down. Kid I know you have called me to be something mighty and fierce, but in all honesty I'm not seeing that anymore. I see a broken woman who is running low on faith. I need you Lord to revive me. I'm weary with little strength right now. Please Lord reassure me that I'm not alone and that your will for my life isn't an imagination. Father, so many people look at me and think I'm a joke right now or they think I'm not trying, when Lord that's what I'm doing. This time is the hardest for me. This heart is dry Jesus. Please help me. Please hear my prayer.
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Contentment
Dear Abba Father,
What can I say about my current situation. I would say that it's not what I would have thought it would be. I'm not where I want to be, and that has been hard for me to break away from. I will be honest with you about the pain and frustration even the anger I feel. I put a lot of time into thinking that what I want is my identity. It's frustrating to be in this place, and very hard to stay focused and content. There are times when I feel like breaking down or just ignoring you. I sometimes do ignore you. I get restless and depressed in this circumstance. My eyes and mind stay more focused on the trial than on you. I'm sorry Father that I get like that. Your humbling day by day. Teaching me that you have all control no matter if I like it or not. I prayed for you to take control I just didn't think it would look this way. I know that trusting you is all that I can do. I mean you took all other options away lol. Contentment is not an easy lesson to learn. It is difficult and sometimes tiring. Leaning on you is the only way to make it through. Your teaching me that. I will not lie and say I'm joyful or happy about this lesson. All I can do is admit my brokenness and despair, and trust that you will see me through.
Love your faithful daughter <3
What can I say about my current situation. I would say that it's not what I would have thought it would be. I'm not where I want to be, and that has been hard for me to break away from. I will be honest with you about the pain and frustration even the anger I feel. I put a lot of time into thinking that what I want is my identity. It's frustrating to be in this place, and very hard to stay focused and content. There are times when I feel like breaking down or just ignoring you. I sometimes do ignore you. I get restless and depressed in this circumstance. My eyes and mind stay more focused on the trial than on you. I'm sorry Father that I get like that. Your humbling day by day. Teaching me that you have all control no matter if I like it or not. I prayed for you to take control I just didn't think it would look this way. I know that trusting you is all that I can do. I mean you took all other options away lol. Contentment is not an easy lesson to learn. It is difficult and sometimes tiring. Leaning on you is the only way to make it through. Your teaching me that. I will not lie and say I'm joyful or happy about this lesson. All I can do is admit my brokenness and despair, and trust that you will see me through.
Love your faithful daughter <3
Sunday, January 10, 2016
What is it to need you
Dear Heavenly Father,
This world is so confusing without you. I remember how my life once was when I didn't know you. My heart back then was so cold. I was broken and didn't have much value. I wanted to fit in with everyone else and I needed everyone else but you. My days were dark with no hope and I thought I could survive without you, How wrong was I. I needed you more than I needed air and still do. You see God to not know you is to not know myself. I live in a world where everywhere I look everyone is trying to find themselves in everything and everyone, but you. I don't want to be one of those people ever again. I was lost and forgotten. I know with you that I am never forgotten. You even left your mark to make sure that I would never forget that I haven't been forgotten. You left the mark of your son dying on the cross for me. When I think about what Jesus did for me I feel overwhelmed with love, and Lord there are days when I forget how much you love me. I get to these dark places when I become lost in my past or my own doubts, but the cross reminds me how much you love me. You do supply all my needs, but living in this truth can be difficult. My need for you should be a constant reminder, because when I forget, I forget you and who you want me to be.
Love your daughter <3
This world is so confusing without you. I remember how my life once was when I didn't know you. My heart back then was so cold. I was broken and didn't have much value. I wanted to fit in with everyone else and I needed everyone else but you. My days were dark with no hope and I thought I could survive without you, How wrong was I. I needed you more than I needed air and still do. You see God to not know you is to not know myself. I live in a world where everywhere I look everyone is trying to find themselves in everything and everyone, but you. I don't want to be one of those people ever again. I was lost and forgotten. I know with you that I am never forgotten. You even left your mark to make sure that I would never forget that I haven't been forgotten. You left the mark of your son dying on the cross for me. When I think about what Jesus did for me I feel overwhelmed with love, and Lord there are days when I forget how much you love me. I get to these dark places when I become lost in my past or my own doubts, but the cross reminds me how much you love me. You do supply all my needs, but living in this truth can be difficult. My need for you should be a constant reminder, because when I forget, I forget you and who you want me to be.
Love your daughter <3
Tuesday, January 5, 2016
To Be or Not To Be Beautiful
Dear Heavenly Father,
My beauty for so long has been based on my opinion and the opinion of others. I want to know and believe that I am beautiful. I don't want to depend on others for my beauty and validation. I have for so long hid behind the mirror. The mirror of lies, I have to find my validation in you Lord. I know that you love me, but the question is believing me. It's hard for me to understand why you love me so much. You created me to impact this world and its hard to do that when I'm operating in a defeated mentality. I let the words that people have spoken over me defeat me. I want to run from those words and believe in the words you have spoken over me. I want to become the woman of God you have called me to be. I know you have already started that process in me, and Lord I want to further in your love. I want to find my confidence in you and see your heart. I want to be yours and I want you to be mine fully. I want my love for you to be so radiant Lord, that the heavens will radiate from my heart. I know that you saved me and made me whole. I choose to draw closer to you Lord. I choose this day to serve you even when I'm stuck in the fog! Your love is worth it. I want to pump out your love Lord. I have to be more like you, I need to be closer to you.Beauty is not defined by my worth seen through the world, it is my worth seen through your heart.
My beauty for so long has been based on my opinion and the opinion of others. I want to know and believe that I am beautiful. I don't want to depend on others for my beauty and validation. I have for so long hid behind the mirror. The mirror of lies, I have to find my validation in you Lord. I know that you love me, but the question is believing me. It's hard for me to understand why you love me so much. You created me to impact this world and its hard to do that when I'm operating in a defeated mentality. I let the words that people have spoken over me defeat me. I want to run from those words and believe in the words you have spoken over me. I want to become the woman of God you have called me to be. I know you have already started that process in me, and Lord I want to further in your love. I want to find my confidence in you and see your heart. I want to be yours and I want you to be mine fully. I want my love for you to be so radiant Lord, that the heavens will radiate from my heart. I know that you saved me and made me whole. I choose to draw closer to you Lord. I choose this day to serve you even when I'm stuck in the fog! Your love is worth it. I want to pump out your love Lord. I have to be more like you, I need to be closer to you.Beauty is not defined by my worth seen through the world, it is my worth seen through your heart.
Wednesday, October 7, 2015
Saying Goodbye
Dear God,
Today I said goodbye to my past. It was hard I will say. I tried so hard to make my past a part of my future and you showed me how I had to let go. It was difficult and there was some hurt, but I know one day I will be grateful for my obedience. It is hard to imagine my past not going with me, but YOU ARE ENOUGH FOR ME. I want to truly believe that and live it out. I have to follow you and that means no turning back! My past can not define me anymore more. I'm trusting you in this. I pray you become my desire Lord. I know I still have to surrender in other areas, I pray you teach me how! I need you more than ever Lord. I want to give you the glory and praise for helping me say goodbye to my past today! Thank you Lord!
Today I said goodbye to my past. It was hard I will say. I tried so hard to make my past a part of my future and you showed me how I had to let go. It was difficult and there was some hurt, but I know one day I will be grateful for my obedience. It is hard to imagine my past not going with me, but YOU ARE ENOUGH FOR ME. I want to truly believe that and live it out. I have to follow you and that means no turning back! My past can not define me anymore more. I'm trusting you in this. I pray you become my desire Lord. I know I still have to surrender in other areas, I pray you teach me how! I need you more than ever Lord. I want to give you the glory and praise for helping me say goodbye to my past today! Thank you Lord!
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
The Heart That has Been Forgotten
Dear God,
My heart for so many years has been locked away from the fear of feeling the pain that is within it. I know that feeling my pain is a part of the healing process, but it is a process I don't want to take. It is a process I don't even want to imagine. I have started and stopped back and forth. Many times I started the process on my own in my very own strength. I just want to be healed with a magical wand. That way there would be no work. It's tiring to continue to walk down the path you have called for me. Who did you create me to be? I know who you want me to be secretly. The desire to do your work lives inside of me. I can feel it. I just can't get to it. The reason I can't get to it is because I am held bound by pain. I swear it has chained like a prisoner. I hate the condition my heart is in. I even forgot my own heart. I forgot why you made it and why its important for ALL of it to be yours. I act as if you forgot about my heart. Who am I kidding, I forgot about my own heart. I always want to help heal hearts in the community and mine isn't even healed yet. How hypocritical is that!I swear I know the truth Lord. The reason is because I'm afraid. I need your help. I know it seems like I won't do it and at times I don't even try, but I want to try. I no longer want to forget my heart.
My heart for so many years has been locked away from the fear of feeling the pain that is within it. I know that feeling my pain is a part of the healing process, but it is a process I don't want to take. It is a process I don't even want to imagine. I have started and stopped back and forth. Many times I started the process on my own in my very own strength. I just want to be healed with a magical wand. That way there would be no work. It's tiring to continue to walk down the path you have called for me. Who did you create me to be? I know who you want me to be secretly. The desire to do your work lives inside of me. I can feel it. I just can't get to it. The reason I can't get to it is because I am held bound by pain. I swear it has chained like a prisoner. I hate the condition my heart is in. I even forgot my own heart. I forgot why you made it and why its important for ALL of it to be yours. I act as if you forgot about my heart. Who am I kidding, I forgot about my own heart. I always want to help heal hearts in the community and mine isn't even healed yet. How hypocritical is that!I swear I know the truth Lord. The reason is because I'm afraid. I need your help. I know it seems like I won't do it and at times I don't even try, but I want to try. I no longer want to forget my heart.
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