I look at the beauty of being in a relationship and I wonder do you have love waiting for me? I know that your love is enough, I just want to know is there someone on earth that you created to love me in the way that you love me. I know right now is not the time to even think about being with someone, because of the condition of my heart. However, I still wonder. Those special hugs and kisses and secrets to share with that special someone. The encouragement and support that special someone will show. The dreams I can share with that someone. These desires that are hidden just for that someone. That same someone should be you first though. I find it to be selfish to desire to be loved by a human more than the desire to beloved by you more. How can I have revelation that your love is enough for me. This is so frustrating! You aren't in human form. I know that you are real. Your love is real, I know it is because I have experienced it before. But its tiring to search for you or even seek you. The enemy attacks me every time. Struggles come and it separates me from you, when it should bring me closer to you. I have a hard time accepting this relationship God. I feel divorced from you. I want to hear you! I want to know what it feels like to be loved! By you and a human. I want to experience a healthy love. Most importantly I want to love in a healthy way. I want to experience love.
Love,
Your Daughter
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